Totally Not Ok

i lost my bestfriend..saw him lying breathless… Not moving… And i dont want to look at him like that… But i have to.. I wanted to hug him tight! Iwanted to scream so loud for him to hear me and so he can jump right out to me ang licked my face! Its so painful! Im regreting all the days i didnt even play with him.. I didnt show him how much i love him.. Im regreting every single minute of the day that he felt so alone because im too busy with some stuffs! I am so sad right now.. Im so hurt! I cant even imagine if i will ever accept all of this!!

I miss u so much Oz! I love you so much!